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Thursday, February 1st, 2007
9:36 pm	miss me? lemme know... someone holla at cha gurl... then we can roll out... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 8th, 2006
11:34 pm	hi (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 8th, 2006
5:09 am	yep i hate men, i am so vile towards men that i really could care less if every single one of them except my dad brother and a few other good ones fell off the face of the earth and died... why is that women put themselves out there and just place our hearts on ou sleeves so you vcan see every single stitch working of it.. and just tear it apart with your sandpaper hands. ugh... and then after hes done... we pice it back together with what we have left... and look at the missing part.. and we just learn to live with it... were like injured veterans... we learn to live with a part of ourselves missing. but please ... tell me... what are u supposed to do... when everythign turns on you, and your heart has no more pieces to gather... when everythign that was promised to you was broken, and everythign that u thought was safe and sacared ... is now desecrated and destroyed... what now... if you love your deffinatly a self mutilator... because its just another way of destroying yourself... you just cant see these scars (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 3rd, 2006
9:31 pm	whatever im deleting my livejournal... i ask my "friends" for advice.. and questions so u guys can help me out with my problems... which i have very few of.. i actually rarely ask anybody for help... i couldve really used anyones advice for once... but w/e peace Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: giddy up (Comment on this)
2:38 pm	well i thought this time around would be different... i thought.. he was different,... i thougth it wouldnt turn out like all the rest, i really thought he would be my lover, best friend, man, husband... i guess u cant expect so much in such a lil time... i suppose... if its ment to be it will happen... but what if a ment to be is messed with by its actors? what if the actors in the ment to be ... screw it up... then is it really ment to be? or is it supposed to be fuked with by the players... and its really just a stepping stine TO your ment to be.... what if it is supposed to be.. and one player messess with the script... so then they screw ur ment to be.... so then because of the other... u end up alone.... and they eventually find some type of hapiness... like... why is it we cant control our own hapiness? Current Mood: confused Current Music: him ... typing (1 Comment |Comment on this)
2:03 pm	Him he doesnt know... he doesnt understand.. he is my life.. al i ever couldve wanted... and i will se him... i will.. if on my birthday i hav to fly out and do it myself.. i will... i just hoep he doesnt shun me, god i love him (Comment on this)
Friday, June 2nd, 2006
2:34 pm	This time around this time around its different... the love i feel for him is unberable. like... i feel like if i dont get to talk to him everday i might burst... the moment comes when he calls every night and like my stomache gets tied up in nots until it rings. then when it does i let the song that he has for his ring play a lil bit because it makes me smile. so then i answer it and then i hear him say hello.. and ugh, its just liek the entire world could come crashing down, and i wouldnt even notice. his voice could save me from anything. i could feel like the worst person on earth, which on many ocasions i have, and the second i hear him calming me down, and telling me "shhh, baby I'm here" I know for some reason that he wont let anything happen and he'll make everything okay. He makes me feel safe, and able to be myself. even though myself has a few loose bolts. Sometimes i would sit back and watch relationships, of friends family members and strangers. i would wactch them fight and bicker with each other, and be like... why... why wont she just leave him, look what he just did, or why doesnt he not take her shit anymore, ugh, he deserves better. now i know why, love. they really love each other, which is why they fight with one another, they fight for one another, and they would rather put up with each others shit for an enternity, just because an eternity isnt a long enough time to fight with each other. you would rather loose everythgin you own and take a million punches in the stomache, because your so in love with that person. thats when its real, its not only u love them because they make you feel good, and because they give you butterflies. not only is it that but its also because you know you could fight with them, for them, with them for a million years and stilll love them just as much the next day. but i suppose there are some people who take this "arguing" to the next uneeded extreme level. like me... i suppose its a mental thing maybe not, i dotn know, maybe im not alone on this one, maybe i am. i guess... its like.. i want to se how much theyll put up with. how much theyre willing to go through to love me. even though I'm well aware of how much they love me. like i want to know how much of one thing will hurt them, or how much of one thing will make them happy, horny, angry, sorry, confused, excited... anything. not like I'm testing theyre love, but more of a i want to see how they would react if they thought i was leavin over something they said, even though i had no intention of leaving in the first place. just to get a reaction. like say your on the phone... and they say somethign mean... your supposed to get angry and be like "I'm just gonna go"... and then your other, is supposed to go, "awe baby, i didnt mean it c'mon" and usually it stops there.. with me, i would hang up... i dont know why, i suppose if they love me like they say they do... they'll call back... and he always does. he alwasy does exactly what i hope he does, and it scares me. I've never had that, I've never had somone put up with my shit like him. other than heather. which is why shes my best friend. she puts up with my shit. so does he. but i dont know why. i would assume its because he loves me. *smile* hes wonderful, and he puts up with me, and he always calls back. so because he puts up with my crap, i keep bringing it to new and extreme levels. to see how much he'll put up with before he gives up on me, but he isnt giving up. wow, he isnt giving up... ... ... ... wow... just thinkin abotu it ... i get scared ... I'm afraid i will unintentinally make him give up, liek not on purpose... and then i cant explain myself and make it ok. i want him to be happy, but i put him through all this crap... liek i want to make sure if something did happen, to these extremes... that he'll still love me... and not just shrug it off, and move on. I do this to everyone i love... i make sure theyll put up with me before i get to involved, to attached. heatehr i did it to her as we got to know each other, i was an emotional bitch crying laughing angry etc... she stayed and alwasy helped and always made things better. my mom i bring her to the edge every time we argue and she still loves me... she may need some cry time but after its all oer and we say our sorries its ok. my dad too... same thing.. he just doesnt cry. My brother even, he puts up with all my shit, he puts me in my place with it, but he deals with it. so in return they will always have me and my help.. even tho thats not much. so i figure these phenominal people in my life deal with my shit, the man im supposed to be with for forever should too... right? so in every single relationship I have ever had... i do that, i push and push until they break... and they have all broken unfder the pressure and given up on me... but not him, he isnt giving up, and ... I dont know why, and I am more in love with this man than i have ever been before in my entire life. i would kill, die, live, anything for him. he makes the pain go away, he heels me, he makes me fly, he gives me the motivation to do things i never thought i could, he makes me feel like eveyrthign is gonna be ok, no matter what the world has to throw at me. ... He's my hero, my knight, the man i want to be with for my forever. He has put up with my shit... and thensome. so I'm done, I'm done trying to push him away, hes not going anywhere... and i dont have any problem with that. he's staying right here with me, because he loves me. I love him more than anything. I would give up anything and everything for him if he asked. He loves me, he really does, he's put up with my shit, and i still pushed him away... but not anymore, he's all mine.. and i think writing this i finally realized... he really does love me.. he really is going to be with me... we really are each others. wow... I am the luckiest person i know. wow. he isnt going anywhere, nowhere without me, wow. I love him, oh my gosh, i really do love him, more than anything. i really am madly insanly in love with him, and i cannot imagine a life without him. not a day has gone by that i havent talked to him, and i wouldnt have it any other way. he makes me breathless. wow, I love him. I love you to the end of the universe "but the universe never ends" you might say .. exactly ... thats why i choose it A hersheys chocolate bar a purple backpack a black t-shirt, lol digital digital get down baby Yo te quiero mucho te amo I love you I'm sorry it just took me this long to realize just how much, and how much i cant live without you. I love you David. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 30th, 2006
9:08 pm	inside lacys brain well... so ive realized now that i am deffinatly in love... again, i knwo story of my life... but this time its diferent i really do love him... its hard to love somone youve never met i suppose and i gueess its hard to be in love when you cant even fathom what it would be like to actually hold them in your arms, and kiss there lips that youve thought abotu for forever, to finally be able to just hold there, i feel that peopel who have that special somone take them for granted, i never did, and i never will, he will be here withme on my birthday, and if not i will fly to be with him the neext day... i suppose you all think im crazy or dumb or maybe even nieve for ffalling into the "its a long distance thing" ... but you can think what you want, he makes me happy, and i suppose i make him happy, i hope i do anyways, i feel liek i can really just goof off and be myslef, be who lacy is, that lacy you all know. i hope to death i get to be with him, i get to kiss him i get to hold his hand, i get to just stare at him, listen to his voice and breath against my ear, anything. he makes me feel more alive than i have ever felt, and thats just by talkign to him, and goofing off with him, and knowing that one day one day i will be able to get to hug him kisss him anything not to self i miss him terribly... i hope he knows how much he has effected my life in such a short time, i never have had such an impact on my life... its phenominal and an amazing feeling, ridiculous really... yo te quiero mucho te amo i love you digital digital get down baby Current Mood: In Love (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 25th, 2006
1:23 pm	somebody shoot me (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 17th, 2006
7:47 pm	best day in a long time just to wrap it up *pick up food fun and gas and peoples *drive to cleawater to find out its to crowded *switch of plans caladesi island *capital S lower case e lower case a lower case n singing backstreet boys *meeting kassie at the sheriff depot... uhhh? lime green love seat? *driving to caldadisi... hitching a ride on the ferry *DOLPHINS!!! *DOLPHINS AGAIN !!!! even closer *arrive at beach *trudge *BEACH! *Bronze god *kite flying 101 *freezing water until u get in it *kite death :( *HUNGER *burgers grilled cheese sodas and fries/ fish and chips *Erika getting attacked by seagulls... best part of Lacy's day.... soooo funny *tanning *Sean trying to tan his ass.... *Erikas nips *little girl... wont... shut up... then seagulls attack lil girl... still funny * football! *heather cant throw *Erika is death and she missed out on more DOLPHINS! *bury me time... *me buried... Seans ass in my face for longer than it should ever be *new and improved Lacy breasts ... a lil lopsided... a lil lumpy .. but WHO CARES! *Sean gave me an inverted nipple *swim to get off the sand *naked swim! *naked hugs *censored section of time you readers shouldnt hear about *time to head in... :( *daddy Sean and Lacy mom... Erika = annpying lil kid that doesnt wanna leave *ferry ride again... after strawberries.. sean leaves skim board *sad* *we find out from ferry driver that tipping is NOT a city in china... *SUNBURN SETS IN! *car! *bohemina rhapsody *truckers... move ur hand up and down... u get a beep *hot guy ... Lacy: owow... heather: yeah ow!... Erika (sean biting Erika) OWWWWWWWW!!!! <-- in pain, lol *more amazing music... *... traffic... *sandy vag's or "women gullies" *hunger! *wendy's! *frisbee toss in wendy's parkign lot *food! *sleepy time in back seat *drop off... *home! in a nutshell and list form... the basicality of my day... THANKS GUYS! i had a blast! why am i the stooge? Erika looking sooo pretty!... b4 the seagull incident I want the video's from today! WHY DO THAY PICK ON ME SO!!! I DIDNT WANT SEASHELL NIPPLES!! Sleepy time on the ride home.. there not really asleep and yes those really are strawberries... the end! Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 16th, 2006
12:20 pm	hey yall well... if i here about one more break up sad relationship i will probably shoot myself... i got from a movie one time that every person is in the exact realtionship status that they wanna be in... wherever u are now you are ther because u and to be... if your unhapy... its because ur too lazy to do somethign about it... dont be shallow... dont be picky... look at different people.. closminded ness is ignorance... if your not happy with what u have then do sometign about it... im tired of hearing abot how u need to close yourself off ... and all that bullshit... DO SOMETHIGN ABOUT IT! .... get out... flirt... change somehing about urself.... u know... improve urself... and be confident... u dont have to have a self pity party.. ugh... kay... bye <3 Current Mood: bitchy Current Music: alison saying ms loberg several times (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
9:32 pm	hackxorz! muhahahahahah So mischievous...but not really! I'm on lacy's account (with permission) to upload the icon that I made! ^_^ I hope you all like it! -Crystal/peachy_keen0821 Current Mood: mischievous Current Music: *sings a victory song* (1 Comment |Comment on this)
8:50 pm	so anonomous doesnt miss me.. its okay tho, i missed him... umm... naked people are funny (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 19th, 2006
1:26 pm	um... miss me? (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 4th, 2006
10:26 pm	why why is it girls give sooo much... and get so little in return and yet they are always still mostly happy? how on earth does that work. like a girl will make all the sacrafices, and do all the shit... and a boy.. wont even notice, or take the time to say "hey.. i really appreciate all u do for me" o well... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
10:26 pm	fun fact guys suck (Comment on this)
Monday, January 30th, 2006
2:17 am	fun facts Sound travels faster in warm water than in cold water. More than 20,000 words in the English language come from French. Pinocchio was made of pine. A donkey will sink in quick sand, while a mule will not. Most people hear better with thier right ear. Orville Wright was the pilot of the first fatal plane crash. More people are alive today, than have ever died. The average life span of an umbrella is under two years The pound sign ( # ) is called an anoctothorpe. In a matter of seconds Zerah Colburn once correctly calculated the amound of seconds which had gone by since the birth of Christ. The word "soloist" was not used untill 1864 The 1900 Olympic games were held in Paris k... im done (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
11:19 pm	fun fact 2+2= 4 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 20th, 2005
9:33 pm	I LOVE SUMMER!!!! . (3 Comments |Comment on this)
9:26 pm	*sigh* im really tired of seeing all this crap. seriously... liek i dont get it, how can a person go from one way, and then make a whole complete 180 degree switch... like... relationships now a days, are rediculous... liike, all i see, is pictures and then like... oo he/shes my life, my world my everything blah blah blah.. what about your world b4 he/she came along, what about yur family, your friends, what happens if they leave you go away break your heart, does that mean you die... no you pick your life up after some morning, and move on, form where you were b4 them... like... that person may seem like your world.. but they arent, right now anyways... once ou get married and you loose your friends and you have a family... then yes, that perosn is your world.. im just so tired of the ignorance, and just stupididty towards young realtionships thee days.. just have fun with it.. because if you dont... you'll regret it... youll realize it was just another phase in your life... and well... im tired of it... *sigh* im not even making any sense...it makes me sad i guess..... to see it all around me and i just want to offer help, but they are so blinded by "love" that they cant see it. just have fun with it. be serious serious later... right now, ust fall in love, and be happy that your young, and you can still get in trouble for stayoing up to late, staying on the phone to long, you cant kiss them yet, or you can only hold there hand one way... saty innocent while you still can, becasue once that innocence is gone... its gone, you cant get it back, you change.. i learned that the hard way. Current Mood: cynical (5 Comments |Comment on this)